Today, I’m struggling with a question: Am I doing ministry, or do I just work at a church? This is something that I’m really trying to find an answer to. The truth that I feel faced with is that often I am so busy with busy-ness that I don’t give “ministry” much thought. At the end of the week I’m not sure that I have done much to advance the cause that I claim to have sold-out to. Is there a single person whose life has changed because of something I have done? This is an unsettling thought for me. I made a decision three years ago to leave my weird career in video and television production and go work for God… I’d be lying if I said there aren’t days that I doubt myself and my choices.
I read a great post by Craig Groeschel that is gnawing at me:
Do you truly want to make a difference in this world? Do you want generations to be different because you knew Christ? Do you want to lead a church that will impact your city, state, and the world? Do you want your preaching to awaken dormant spirits, stir complacent hearts, convict wayward sinners?
Then pray this prayer: “God, please break me.”
And when He does, you’ll be ruined—in the best sort of way.
- Your heart will ache for those without Christ.
- You’ll despise spiritual complacency.
- You’ll see the darkness of your heart clearly.
- You’ll be bothered deeply by things you used to easily overlook.
- You’ll cry often and easily.
- You’ll know Jesus more intimately.
“Break us… Oh, Lord! Break us!”